my love is true. is urs?

i hate feeling tired

2011-09-20T23:05:00.001+08:00

whoa im so busy nwadays,rarely have time fr even myself :(

yeah as u see...

14,17&19 sep: jln raya

15,16&18,21,22 sep: work

20 sep: school

23,24,25: mly dance trainig and performance

:(

been a hectic wk fr me..

and more events comng..

fully booked,tight schedule..

SHAGGED!
till i slept in the bus... to the interchg and a stranger had to wake me up..
So paisey bt oh well...
i did tt to someone who slept in a bus bfr.. out of kindness..
so i guess,the wman did it out of kindness too.
bla3..

leaving fr hanoi in two weeks time,i think..
gonna miss my bby.. as i had to cancel our USS plan..
im sorry...

im thinking abt going the halloween spooktacular nite as well..
at sentosa,bt the tix are like damn ex...
hmm..

gosh,i can barely open my eyes.. when was the last time i had myself pampered?

till then,
idaia

14 sep 2011-raya and mthsary

2011-09-15T00:02:00.003+08:00

went out jln raya,with loves today...

unintentionally,all of us wear brown..
nt planned at all.. :)

eventhough we meet up late,i still had fun..

i love them alot..

and nt frgetting,
hapy 4 yrs 7mths to me and bby love,

love him likka a love song

mwah!

till then,
idaia

HARI RAYA AGAIN

2011-09-02T09:36:00.003+08:00

havent been bloggin much,cos so busy with hari raya..

SO SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

nthg much ayy bt ths year seem slike no mood to celebrate.

my hands and FEET are litrally filled with henna.. :)
.

havent met bf fr weeks nw!
sad life..

and i miss my gfs...
but nt fidah,just met her the other day,when i went visitng to her hse..
haha,no la... i miss evri sgl one of them....
hope someone will plan an outing soon :)

and i guess ths holidays,i will just spent my time working likka a noob..
im done working at body shop actually...
i wanna resign... but.....................
nvm,too many thgs to consider if i were to quit ths job..
bt the pay is likka SHIT..
and the environment is getiing a lil bit diff..
wit most of my fav ppl ,being transfered out..

and oh yeah,TT won the president election..didnt really like it..
but who the fuck am i to say?

maybe his a former PAP,tts y i dont like him..
anw,hope he's done after 5 years.. no walkover like SR NATHAN..
imagine nw,we have to see his face and his wife,the first lady..
in moct schools and CC..
i just wan SR NATHAN back...
Hope tt TT cn go die.. he looks like the KFC uncle.. just wear him a white suit, and give him a walking stick... TA-DA!
was rooting fr TCB actually..

im so anti-government and realy,at ths moment,feel like migrating..:(

blogging always makes me feel better..
one day,when i grow up,i wanna see what life had made me bcome..
this is my story..
my craps...

till then,
idaia

im going crazy studying..

2011-08-19T06:03:00.003+08:00

SHAGGED! TIRED! FATIGUE!

alright this is it...
exams in a few hour time.. did nthg much actually,cos the fact is, simply cant get anythg into my pea-sized brain.. yea,i really have a small brain..

assignments was all done with a few weeks ago..

bt nw fr the MAJOR exams fr ITBD and DLE.
this sucks like litrally.
im tired of mugging.. seriously i need my beauty sleep and shall go fr retail cum spa therapy soon as soon as this shit is over.
i dont even noe y im doing ths course anymore,the passion sort of die dwn halfway..
if u ask me again nw,wat do i want to be when i grow up,my ans: idk! i really dont! :/

i used to think i had evrythg planned but no! not this time.

fasting is also like killing me.. i mean yea its good for religion stuffs,bt i am so under pressure...
summore need to fast and work..

and talking abt work,planning to resign from body shop,cos im like sian of the routine,applied to be a customer service person at M1,looks much more easier... should i?
anw,DnD was awesome much,may be my first and last! :)

anyway the more older i get,the more things i hve to think about,nw i noe wat my parents feet, hw i wish im still a kid cos all i ever have to tink abt is play,eat,slp.. bt now,money is an impt issues..

and then the president election,i heck cre abt this kind of govt stuff actually,i lost hope in PAP,,no longer sees them as the leading parliament. mark my werds,wont vote them fr the next election.. bt nw is the election of the new president.. so many candidates even mum is stress out who to exactly choose.. its like,one wrong choice,u will kill the whole of sg.. its like fr hw many years we are under SR NATHAN and suddenly there is ths chg.. will SGreans be able to cope with the changes.. heard their rally last night,some of them was practically boot-licking themselves,asking ppl to vote fr them.. i mean if i u noe,u r good enough,be humble and the citizens will definitely vote fr u.. bt sadly i blogged also still gt no say :(

ayg,well he's taking his provisional driving license alr.. wen exactly is my turn..?
this taught me to do family planning and nt to give birth to a LATE HALF OF YEAR BBY!
make me wait like till then end of the year,wen JAN bbys are all taking thier driving license! :(
aiyo,so stress... and i admit a lil bit jealous... :(

ok la,tts all i guess fr my rant.. and should look out fr my vlogs.. ive started vlogging.. and i admit its kinda cool... my first one was fr the Minah... its kinda funny...

and i perform, representing my malay dance ths year, fr NDP! :) at NP Convention Ctr! :)

and im so addicted to each a cup,alisan tea pingo w pearls.. nice like hell,ok random! C:

till then,

luv me :)

hectic like a g6

2011-07-18T09:59:00.003+08:00

idk if ppl ever read this blog of mine...

so lotsa of things happen recently.. been working like a workaholic..
the other day was like 4yrs 5mth.. so went to eat... and wanted to watch harrp potter.. then suddenly his hand swell like siao~
so we cancel plan...

truth is...

nazme broke his wrist, fractured i think.. so he's currently recuperating..

school has always been annoying... really,with assignments piling... literally dying and killing me.. and results are like fuck... so annoying... :O

anw.. ANGELINE is back frm her trip to bangkok... after abt one week,lecturers ask fr her wherabts.. some classmates even tot she wanted to quit school.. well,sort of miss her nonsense..

and i sort of dnt like one of my gfs bf alr.. just find him unreasonable...
bt watever he is alr in my BLACK BOOK.. i respect you,u treat me like i dont deserve ur respect.. worst i dun even tink u deserve her... i pity her so stress up with life.. and u,u have to add on to it...

hmm.. so many things happen..

hapy legal 18 to someone..

2011-07-07T12:45:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BDAE LEGAL 18 TAN LEYING :)

go take driving lesson quickly..

nw can go club alr.. chey...!
and ehem,try smoking seesha OFFICIALLY

love idaia..

hair?

2011-07-05T23:02:00.003+08:00

me and bby dyed our hair,
As you can see
red fr me
and gold fr him...

in all,its just fr arnd 100$..

im loving my hair colour...

tmr will be my field supervision
i hope i can get thru it..
quite stress and scared actually...

assignments are still cope-able and manageable..

till then,
im out..

cos i need to do things fr my learning centre.. :)

FUCK MOOD ON~

2011-06-26T20:54:00.004+08:00

seriously damn pissed..
no time fr ur own gf at all... GRR~

not in a good mood today..

╭∩╮（︶︿︶）╭∩╮
FUCK YOU x2 PLS!

and extremely bored like fuckk...
i use crayon,colour like small kid..

Do i look pretty?

`p.s: boredom made me do ths..

xoxo,
Idaia

JUNE... to be gone..

2011-06-23T16:55:00.006+08:00

blogging makes me happy~
trust me.. i lat all my feelings here alot..

wen i read my archive some tickled me,so sadden me and some angered me..
bt oh well, bury the hatchet i guess??

JUNE is coming to an end..
and i must say its the best mth so far..

evrythg was left on a good note..
so hell yeah...

school gonna reopen in a few more days..
And im so jittery abt it..
cos i noe there will be tsunami load of assignments to be done.

.

And im currently missin my bby,almost one week plus nt meeting him...
awww....

updates!

2011-06-22T13:39:00.003+08:00

ok i cut-ted? my fringe...
waiting fr end of mth to like rebond it and hi-lite it w bby love..

~famine camp~

was a to the w to the esome!AWESOME!being a game warriors(game master) was actually quite tough..

food was nice..but other than waiting time and a few cockups and misunderstanding..
coc in camps they are bound to be changes and we have to be flexible..
i tink all of us were great..

yea.. 4yrs 4mth w love..
Cant blive it we r still going strong despite the fites we had..
xoxo

life is currently good...
just came back from holiday.. from genting w family..
was fun... but the ride i wanted to take was closed for technical repairs..

till then,sayonara...

-idaia

ewww... upgrading..

2011-06-22T00:13:00.001+08:00

imma revamp this blog...

till then

-idaia

;)

2011-02-25T20:20:00.000+08:00

whoa.. this is pretty dead.. :)

new year resolution :)

2011-01-06T15:04:00.004+08:00

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION :)

doubt it will even be accomplishd

1)lose weight

2)do well in sch

3)be a gd gf

4)be a good xpdtari-an

5)buy new camera

6)keep face FLAWLESS,at least try to

7)buy high waist pants/jeans

8)perm hair?

9)dye a natural brown colour...

.......

will update again......

bye

idaia

2011...

2011-01-01T15:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)

2011,pls be a nice and memorable one!

hmm..

2010-12-15T21:14:00.004+08:00

i told u i cant take her as a sister... YET...

1 sem doesnt mean a thg k?

ethel and serena was w us for one sem to wat?

wat happen to tt?

we didnt started out w wenxi..

tts y wen she wanted to hang out w us...

i asked u for how lng..

u cant force me to accept her...

i mean she's nice and all...not problematic or wat...

bt she will only,at this time,remain like a shamah or terine-kind-of friend to me...

cos maybe i have not see e connection btwn me n her..or the bond...

just so u noe,im adapting... n............... oh nvm!

and ya,abt the attitude...

u wont know... cos u didnt see...

n can she even see her own face...?

GOSH! no mirror...

so i saw it... n ya.. i was like

"WOW,u r like tt?"

i just wan her to noe... yea,im frens w her.. cool w her...

but as a sister.. no.... not yet...

lemme tell u.. i choose my frens wisely..

cos i had bad experience...

and to take in ppl,or like kick out ppl,its alr enuf for me to

see where is the clique heading?

so wat? u telling me?our clique like charity?

not strong enuf to stay as like the ORIGINAL?

if really u r true frens,u will settle the prob in the grp...

and try to stay together..

ask wenxi whether did she settle or talk thgs out w her clique..

frm wat i heard,she just ignore them... she was avoiding them..

they wanted to take her in back... see??y did she leave them in e 1st place??

n ya,if they really took her in,maybe they wanna work out a solution...

u noe,wat the other gfs fear?

the fear of e grp brking up again...

i just cudnt care anymore... :(

sucks to be me huh?

2010-12-15T18:00:00.002+08:00

im writing as to let u all noe wat i feeling..

i feel tt i cannot supress it anymore...

so if u find this offensive,im sorry..

i rather put it here...

rather than talk as i noe

it WILL turn wrong and i will fight with both of u..

so to leying,and wenxi,

u might be wondering.. why i was angry with both of u..

well.. let's just say that i felt that i didnt contribute much for the cayc assignment

hence i decided to make up by doing the grp summary..

even if its grp,well i did all by myself..(not tt i mind)

bt can u atleast app tt?

u were asking me how to do? wat to do?

wen i did tt in prior with the assignment descriptor..in the canteen..

and not even a thk u tt ive done like 70% of tt assignment..

wen i cudnt make it for meetings or see e effort of u girls comng to meet me

all the way at wlds... i know how to give u girls recognition..

u were both watching k-pop when we settle dwn at the library..

wen it was late for submission..u blame it on all of us

if u knew before 4pm,while u urself delay??

pls girls,a word of advise u need to noe,how to priortise...

work or k-pop...?

as much as i like k-pop too...dun be too obsessive and ya,wats

the use of getting a daily scoop of ur idol?? as if they even know??

n ya,one of u told a gf tt u chg alot,u edit alot..

but to me,, its just like e same piece tt i gave u before

just w e grammar corrections and the part A..

WATS THE BIGGIE??!

at least i did somethg... waddya expect? close to perfection?

u noe its far from library to office,y complain?

y complain tt will be late or watsoever..

n ya,wenxi u dun have to talk to me in that sort of manner

and facial expression...

to tell u e truth..well i have to...

i dun like the fact that MY group,is seen as a charity to me..

we just sort of "lose" ethel and serena,and u came alog joining us..

e first few days u joined i tot u had problem with ur clique.bt to noe u r joining us for like permanent...

i was like "wtf?"

im not that type pf person tt can accept anyone just like tt..

no doubt u r my fren,bt to go to a sister level,like the rest...

I CANT JUST ACCEPT U YET as a sister..(not tt i wont;or i will)

sorry to say this,

and i was "perfect" w leying..

until u....

came along...

oh wow...u girls bought the same bag...

i was planning to buy MY girls all the same bag for christmas,

bt i guess,i wont now...

somehow i envy u dear wenxi,

how did u manage to win over ly tt fast?

k-pop? oh my... interest does matter huh??

i wont say much anymore,tearing up now...

somethgs are meant to be said and unsaid...

im sorry if any of u are offended bt THE TRUTH ALWAYS HURTS...

hospitalised!

2010-12-03T17:38:00.002+08:00

LET THIS BE A LESSON TO ALL CONTACT LENS USERS!

;(

THKS ALOT TO FRENS TT MADE E EFFORT TO COME DWN..

AND FRENS TT AT LEAST,SHOW CONCRN THRU FB OR SMS.. :)

AND NOT FORGETTING,MY BBY BOY,WHO VISITED ME

EVRYDAY WO FAIL DESPITE... WORKING...

ILY SYG!

WANNA THK ALL THE NURSES AND DRS FOR ALL UR EFFORTS IN ASSISTING ME FOR A SPEEDY RECOVERY.. :)

phew!

2010-11-17T19:49:00.002+08:00

SCH HAS BEEN SO MUCH MORE HECTIC.. and unplanned and CHAOTIC!

ME AND THE GIRLS RUNNING ARND..

to search for classes or even to get to class..

thx to the removal of 15min grace... its like we're forever rushing...

school has been draining my energy out..

im wondering if i should quit job...

or maybe find a more relaxing job w more higher pay..?

n ya,assignments are piling up...

and i really hate it....

relationship has been on a bad rollercoaster...

it's like we're lovey-dovey at this minute and the next few hrs we fight again..

and worst over small things...

i fucking hate it...

aft his o lvls i tot it wud be better..

bt somehow... -no comments-

i hope this will end soon..

p.s: im really trying my best to be.. n definitely i will be...

yay me!

2010-11-06T11:01:00.002+08:00

i have the world's

AWESOMEST

SISTERS...

and

BOYFRIEND!

yeah!

2010-10-11T07:17:00.004+08:00

sorry been lately on fb...!

anw, i rebonded my hair..

and im still waiting to like wash it..

i noe! yUCKS! bts tt part of the processed..

be it rebon or perm...

i hope sch will start soon..

i miss my gfs...

n love life has been good...

i mus chiong for my upcoming sem..

2.4 for a start is so not good..

so not wat i expected!

kk,,me n my bf opening a blogshop this time round..

for real,we just looking for some source and also capital!

lets get some hard cash bby!

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

hehe...

k bye!

results......

2010-10-01T12:48:00.003+08:00

results r out...

i dun do quite well for it...

mostly cs&bs...

HAPY CHILDREN DAY!

to all the kiddies out there...

sorry if its nt updated as much..

cos im on fb more..

see ly,tts y i didnt want to create a fb...

urgh!

2010-09-27T14:16:00.000+08:00

hi....bye!

i dun need a life alr..

2010-09-16T09:29:00.000+08:00

its over officially until 14092010..

bt y cant i just get u out of my mind...

our memories are flashing bk... it sucks k..

its hard 4 me to move on.. bt im tryin..

since ttz wat u want...

n to all the girls who had supported me...

thx..

i got no mood to blog..

bye!

2010-09-09T09:21:00.002+08:00

so during this holiday we miss some of our girls bdae...

UMA

ARIEL

JOEY YUEN

hapy bdae girls...

and anw,just a review for my exam..

ppcm reminds me of social studies where we write like freaking long answer for one short question..

LOL!

n cdev i tink im goinna flung it..

so do comment and post something abt how u did or feel abt the exam ok?

happy holiday girls... all of u deserve a brk..!

fasting mth is ending.. wees...

2010-09-08T13:46:00.002+08:00

EXAM IS OVER!! WEES!!

alright im off today.. took sick leave ytd...

gosh!

im nt in the mood to hari raya alr...

cos im so sick...

baby had left spore to balik kampung..

n i was so sad just now in the am...

i didnt wanted him to go....

but no choice..

hope he will be back before friday..

hmm...

im so bored..

this yr theme colour is black..

7 SISTERS,I MISS ALL OF YOU...

evri year its the same...

2010-09-01T13:28:00.004+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!

ytd,went back to school,to see all my teacheers...

well.. give present to e teachers who taught me thru my final year...

get to see some ex class n sch mates too...

anw,aft tt meet ayg..

spent time w him...

n like evry teachers day..

we fite,,ya... since 2008...

so yea... i dun understand...

well... its his fault...

y do u always have to check my hp evritym we meet...

u dun trust me??

n wen my hp rang...

n i told u it was mum...

n i quickly kept it...

u DMAND u wanna see it...

y? u really dun blive me...??

haish.. i hate it k..

anw i reallyy had a fun time w u....

(o-.-o) i wanna hold u tight again...

all my life,n nvr let u go....

brb soon....

exam is just arnd the corner,wont be blogging much...

tc aites??

cooking day...

2010-08-27T19:45:00.004+08:00

hey hey..

long time i nvr blog..

so yea,as im not workng today,,,

i cooked...!

yea.... u heard me right! cook!!

haha,,

lemme tell u..

* a secret*

nazme is goinna regret marying me as....................

idk how to cook...

bt nt until today,,,

i'll show u the end product...

ya, it may look like *ehem* SHIT!

i guess tts where i lose the presentatn points as i purposely didnt tell my mum

to buy like the red green n yellow capsicum...

as i really hate vege....!

haha... bt wait til u put tt in ur mouth..

u'll salivate for more..

im becoming a gd wife to be..

haha...

huby u got to sample by cooking...

so how here is the testers comment...!

wow.the best meat dish ive ever tasted in my life! -ika,2nd sis

hmm.. nice.... -syasya,3rd sis

not bad! -mum

i have nothing.... do u have even at least,something?

2010-08-23T11:55:00.001+08:00

tts wat im made for right?

i dun even have the right to do anythg...

all my right is only to forgive ppl like u..

ONLY FORGIVING IS MY RIGHT!

no point holding,.... just go away.....

2010-08-22T20:37:00.003+08:00

im so speechless...

n yet u lie to me again..

eventhough u promise not to..

haish...

wen i ask u out to buka w me...

u say u cant...

blah3..

bt wats all tt?

haish... u nvr told me u were going somewhere..

why must i noe all this by myself..?

wen im starting to love u all over again..

wen im starting to truz u all over agian...

n u say u r short of money...

blah3...

n i still have the hart to buy for u first ur pp8 card..

bt u have money to go THERE..

lemme say this..

im done with this..

being treated like an animal...

u just dun care abt my feelings....

nvm...i gave on ths relationship..

i gave up on u..

im just so hartbroken right now..

bye...

TAN LEYING,I REALLY NEED YOU NOW!... :(

i dont love u like i did ytd...

2010-08-19T10:39:00.011+08:00

im sick of crying...

im tired of trying..

outside im smiling..

but inside,im already dying...

all those nights i cried...

it doesnt matter if i bleed outside,

bt i already bleed inside..

too much,,,,,

its too late,cos im already dead..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

its not wen i look back at the memories...

and good times we had,

that makes me sad...

its wen u consider those memories...

as nthg to u,

when they mean evrithg to me...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

the saddest part isnt tt w each passing day

i feel like it need u even more

bt its the fact tt u dun need me at all...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i just want u to leave me alone...

stranded up on a high place..

and before u knew it...

im gone.....

nvr ever to come back...

nvr ever to hold u...

nvr ever to be by ur side....

tts wen u realise how much uve hurt me...

and how muc u need me...

tts wen u blame urself for not tresuring me..

but then,its all too late..

nthg can ever rewind tt.....

It's automatic

every word in your letter

A lie that makes me bleed

It's automatic

when you say things get better

But they never!

There's no real love in you

Why do I keep loving you?

Each step you make

Each breathe you take
Your heart
Your soul
Remote controlled
You're automatic to me...

there's a reason for bhind evrythg...

2010-08-11T12:56:00.005+08:00

ok... i love my girls.. n im starting to miss them..

and i badly wanna see "new" ethel....

ETHEL CHENG.I WAN SEE U.

n ya... ive sort of made up my mind on wats going to happen...

wen i keep quiet,or wen i close juz one eye to the thgs u do..

doesnt mean im fine with it...its just tt im givin u another chance...

so dun step over my head... i have my limits...

bhind evry smile,evry hug,there's more pain to it..

n the pain is overpowering me tt i cant accept u anymore...

whether nt u r there or here or wherever,it dun really matter anymore..

cos i dun give shit abt u...

its like btween us,there will bound to be no more trust and understanding...

due to ur f-ing behavior or issit attitiude?

i need to study for my exams now...

well.. i just cant make up wich to study first..

should i do ppcm.. or cdev first....

both are quite dry and heavy....

omg!!!

im so not enjoyin hols..

f-ing sick... w sore throat summore....

haish....

IVE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU!

let's rot together....

2010-08-07T09:32:00.008+08:00

sat am n lappy is alr on...

so today is the start of 'rotting at home holidays'!
term brk officially started till 17 oct?

well i dun really noe until wen...

till then... im free...

other than the two days which i have

2 examinable module....

im so happy!

out of 8... only 2 were examinable..

technically im free...

but no! nxt wk is starting of fasting mth....

n i wont have mood/energy to do stuffs...

so dun bother!

so ytd...

was a 2hr sch... sucks!

bt get to take pics,alot alot alot of them...

was planning to go home until at the bus....

start convo~translated!

too much of everythg can make u sick~my hp tone...

syg:hello ayg!

me: wat........................?

syg: i at mosque now... today no ~~remedial/exce~~l extra class...

me: =O.O= .......... REALLY? AND??

syg: so wanna meet me?

me: *tink shortly* ok... but muz be fast ok?

syg: tsk,why like tt..?

me: ok uh.... where?

syg: let's go Bishan!
me: there got wat??

syg: later k??

yup so took like a detour....?

syg was so swit...

walk around there...

go cotton on...

blah3...

and then! bump into.....................

guess who...............??

ETHEL CHENG! (i love u ethel cheng)

wahlao! haha so suey........ NOT!

well was quite shock to see her actually cos she just stood there in front of me n syg...

so abit weird back then...

but on the other its not tt shocking..

cos she said she was goin back to her sec sch..

n bishan is like 1 stop away frm amk..

so yeah!

syg bought itouch cover....

n i bought a new watch...

its e watch tt i had w syg a few years back..

oh so sentimental... idk wat happen to mine...

i edit my hair colour^^

so ate pasta mania again!
i tink i ate 3 times of pasta mania ths week...

w syg..

getting bored....

of the food...........

im so "enjoying" the food.... n i edited syg hair in the 2nd pic.... reddish brown!

O.O

went back to cwp....

n i watched the sorcerer apprentice...

cos at juntion8 was only a one time screening..

and the student price is $6.50..cathay@cwp is only $6..

wat is so good abt GV?

i preer cathay... especially cineleisure...

n it was damn cool..

i like it!

i edit this picture.... see my hair colour!!

n on my hand actually there was a blue ink...

im so loving photoshop!

last day of attchment...

2010-08-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

so it was last day alr...

for practical attachment..

this few weeks has been a wonderful exp...

together with ariel n geraldine...

no sad feelings however...

so miss anita(our mentor) ask us to do a asimple activity..

and we did art!

so start off by singing...

the song ms xtina teach us...

MY PADDLE CLEAN AND BRIGHT

FLASHING LIKE SILVER

UNDER THE PALE MOONLIGHT

DEEP IN AND SWING...

and the K2...

was brilliant!
they grasp the song really fast and manage to sing at their own pace wo

our guidance...

and so this are the art works...

btw,the 2nd rabbit at the bottom row is mine!'

we did animals... which is also conjuncture to the theme tt the centre is studying now.

so there are

cats

dogs

lion

monkey

rabbit

so pictures!

super lift!

2010-08-04T11:01:00.001+08:00

ive tried this and it works!!!

urggh!

2010-08-03T22:32:00.007+08:00

somethings in life,are meant to be said....

some r nt...

even wen u r the verge of brking dwn,u noe,its for the best...

TO STFU!

and i hate it damn much wen u show off ur two colours...

meet syg... do hmwk at wlds libry..

ate dinner at pastamania...

fidah keep making me jeles abt her mum's cooking...

cos auntie sabariah cooked crab...! mmm...

WELL,THIS POST IS ACTUALLY DEDICATED FOR TAN LEYING..

(I NOE U R READING)

well i love her to the bits n pieces.. other than dear rafidah cousin....

im not showing favouritism or anythg,bt ya,its the truth..

she put alot of effort in all the thgs she do.. and most of us took her for granted..

n she really treasure all of us.. n seriously all the 6 of us..

its time tt we all give her a brk...

i hope u girls c tt...

and she nvr fail to make my day...

doesnt matter sad or happy...

i LOVE u....

she's always there for me w open arms...

doesnt matter if i have probs or need a shelter,

she's willing to help...

giving me advice...

the one who's willing to just say ok wen she's not ok...

the one who's willing to complete assignment wen she is sick..

the one who's willing to sacrifice even if she noes it will hurt her..

the one who's willing to do EVERYTHG!!

thus ths makes her my fav sister...

deep dwn... ive see ur good intention...

im willing to be ur sister tt is willing to share

ur burden w...

im so happy to found a friend like u....

yh,u r so dumb to dump a gf like her....for watever reasons u hav...

u r jus a heartless jerk...

thks babe!

im so tired....

2010-07-31T06:15:00.001+08:00

Like, when your heart wants it this way and the mind wants it another and then you just want to dig your head inside a hole because you dont want to face it.

Like, when there's crossroads to take and you just want to stay right on the same spot because you are afraid that you will make the wrong move. (angeline,2010)

Someday, one day I'm gonna pull out all my hair/ your hair/ everyone's hair. ARGHHHHHHHH!!! (leying,2010)

Every second I spend away from you,
I miss you more and more,
You are my life, the fire to my soul,
Without you I am nothing.

You seem too good to be true,
The way you are always there when I need someone to talk to,
How you always know what to say to make me smile,
And the way you hold me so I always feel safe.

Your touch is so gentle and yet so strong,
That when you put your arms around me all my troubles disappear,
I never thought I would have you, never thought I deserved you,
But now I have you, I never want to let you go.

I know I can annoy you at times and I can be a winger,
But I love you and you mean everything to me,
I never want to lose you,
Because without you I am nothing.

We have had our ups and some downs.
Shared so many smiles and a few frowns.
But, we stuck through it all.
Never apart, will we fall.

So many memories we have shared.
Forever together, our promise we swear.
This love will never die.
For I will always remain by your side.

Yes, we argue and sometimes fight.
But, I still love you at the end of the night.
Please know, I will never give up on you.
And, my promises I will hold true.

I know you've heard every word written here.
Yet again, I needed them to appear.
To reassure you after all we've been through,
That I am still here for you.

So, from this day until forever,
Know we will get through whatever.
As long as you keep a smile on your face,
Our feelings we will never replace.

I never want anyone else.
Therefore, my heart rests upon your shelf.
I love you more than I could ever express.
Forever and always, not a day less.

I miss the way you smell,
I miss the way you speak,
I miss the way your eyes sparkle,
and most of all,
I miss the way I thought you loved me.

You help me to see
There will always be a we
I'll never leave you
I'll make sure that this is true.

You mean more to me than life
Just seeing you gets me through my strife
I'm sorry I did all those stupid things before.
You mean so much more to me for sure.

Do you love me
I hope that you can see
I will always only love you
You will never have to wonder who.

STORY TELLING went WRONG!

2010-07-30T13:26:00.004+08:00

i think i did ok........ for stb...

until i stunt two long time...

so this is the pic pf my prop and the vd....

(and the wolf is shamah's prop)

MY ART FAIL SO YEA!!

ENJOY!

comeon laugh at my stupidity..

the vd....

where i tink i suck at....

so ya!

ENJOY!!

i love the way u lie..

2010-07-29T13:30:00.004+08:00

it feels so good hacking into ur fucking acct....

haish...

im so sad...

dun ask me y...

im sick..

suppose to meet gfs today to do projek..

bt somthg on w fam... + im sick...

so yea... gotta miss tt spagetthi...

so nervous for story telling tmr...

haish..

n ya i changed my blog song... SPECIALLY FOR U...

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem - Verse 1]
I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off her love, drunk from my hate, it's like I'm huffin' paint
And I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me, she f**kin' hates me
And I love it, "wait, where you goin'?"
"I'm leavin' you," "no you ain't come back"
We're runnin' right back, here we go again
So insane, cause when it's goin' good it's goin' great
I'm superman with the wind in his back, she's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snap
Whose that dude? I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

[Chorus]

[Eminem - Verse 2]
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you with em you meet and neither one of you even know what hit em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills used to get em
Now you're getting f**kin' sick of lookin' at em
You swore you'd never hit em, never do nothin' to hurt em
Now you're in each other's face spewin' venom in your words when you spit em
You push pull each other's hair
Scratch claw hit em throw em down pin em
So lost in the moments when you're in em
It's the face that's the culprit, controls you both
So they say it's best to go your seperate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records playin' over
But you promised her next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no nintendo game, but you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

[Chorus]

[Eminem - Verse 3]
Now I know we said things, did things, that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is, you're the same as me
When it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby please come back, it wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up the bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time there won't be no next time
I apologize even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games I just want her back
I know I'm a liar if she ever tries to f**kin' leave again
I'ma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

[Chorus]
[End]

random...ZZZ...

2010-07-28T12:28:00.005+08:00

and i can be ur colgate ambassador!!!

i want kiss u badly huby... NOT!!

actually.... I DO k??

should i choose ethel and fidah?

i love them both ok??

and this is my feelings for u now...

i guess...

i made it myself ok...

although im not sure if its really wat iwant..

cos im scared of losing u....

i love u.. but im so confused....

wat exactly i am to u....

2010-07-27T18:55:00.004+08:00

i asked u a qn: Wat am i to u?

and u epli....

IM HELL!!

fuck la...

u tink u so good issit gigolo??

fuck la..

all this wile,i was the one who cherished us..

for this relationship...

u abit2 ask for brk...

wat u tink i am?

ur doll....??

im so sad k?

huby y u like this...

i literally forget and u already make a big fuss...

its not as if i flirt bhind ur back...

oh wen u forget abt the swimming inciden n the fb inciden...

i forgave u... wth!!

im so hartbroken..

u insulted me..

all u can!!then i cnnt...

is that wat u call fair....?

then take pics with others u can smile...!!

take pic w me...

smile is like fucking hard!

evritym wrong timing la- wat la- this la- that la-

go die la..

u never smile wen take pic w me..

but w other ppl?!!

smile so BIG!!!

fuck...

im on the verge of breaking down..

u r such a motherfucking jerk...

i noe u r ignorin me..

fuck la..

i hate it....

u say u got other girls... u say u dun love me...

bt truth is,u dun hav other girls... n i noe u still love me...

haish....

dad's currently being in a BITCH!
and i hate it lots...

fuck him la...

and now muz u laptop outside...

n he dare wanna throw out me and my sisters..

well,for me,i can fend for myself..

i dun need him...

i pay my hp bill mysef...

my food bill....

and ya i can still survive...

and im still growing fatter...

ASSHOLE!!

fuck my day todae... ttm!!

so many assignments.. and break up?

2010-07-25T08:07:00.001+08:00

FML TTM!!

fuck ok?

i freaking need a break..

a week of stress is enuf to make me go insane,...

up next

wricom individual assignment
storytelling
eepe

urgh!

i cant stand the overflowing stress..

might as well kill myself...

and seven sisters..

idk wats goin on btwn all of us..

but let me make it clear, I AM NUETRAL or issit NEUTRAL?

ok watever it is,im fren w both parties ok?

if there is even both parties?

idk all of us are like together but separated..

i mean ya we still hangout as seven once in a wile but ya...

its most of the time.... with the closest in the group...

wat hapen to 7?

7 is a pretty bad number for me actually cos last time,in my sec sch days,

i oso have a girl "gang" which i "dump" and also with 7 members...

and then i settle w one gf..

MAYA...

MAYA... i miss u,call me ok??

pls girls... 3 years together...

just realise tt conflicts wont get us anywhere....

im so sad...

and me & syg hasnt been talking..

i mean we do...

bt hasnt been talking nicely..

phone has been slammed,msg been ignored,sms been unanswered..

how bad can this be?

currently...

idk whether im angry,sad,tired,pissed of or watever...

fuck!

NOONE REALLY UNDERSTANDS ME!

ironic huh??

2010-07-24T01:39:00.000+08:00

I DIDNT KNOW GUYS HAVE MOOD SWING!?

isnt that ur line?

then y r u having it now?

traffic jam..... i hate it!

2010-07-23T19:51:00.006+08:00

just look at the massive jam!

and this is only behind the shuttle bus... and its long way to go ok?

and the front was like pfft....

no wonder i am always late or nearly late for school..

i mean with the upgrading and constucting

of the new circle line near school area,traffic has almost been a bitch..

really!

and sumore w reckless drivers getting into road accident espeacially along the area of construction..

are they stupid?

its cause of them too,lanes are joined...

FUCK!!!

urgh...

now im regrettin gwhy school is like freaking far away from home...

its really tiring me...

its hartbrokening!

2010-07-23T14:44:00.005+08:00

ok... met along at home ytd with huby...n ibulong...

n celebrate his 65th bdae....

pictures ok?

im so tired...

i cried wen he cannt remember me bt i dun blame him..

he sighed and he cried...

omg.... im so sad..

he was like "sigh,im sorry dear,i cant remember...."

huby see me cry n offer me tissue..

so sad..

hapy 65th bdae!!

hello! i got feelings!

2010-07-22T15:37:00.003+08:00

seriously i am so fucked up by ur behaviour nowadays..

and u noe it dun u?

i got fucking feelings.. even if u dun care,at least know tt i have a heart..

school's being a bitch now.

with piling and non-stop assignment..

if life is this bad,

i better kill myself..

no need wait for 2012 or watsoever...

FML TTM!!

p.s: n to u,u,u, hu dk wat is ttm...

its to the max and not teman tpi mesra..

pls la,go improve ur english...

alright,before i vent out evrythg in ths post,better i shut up an keep evrithg inside of me... and one day,i might juz explode....

cuurently at wlds library ALONE,waiting for him

like a bitch!

ya cos we visiting along later....

n meeting ibulng before tt... FMLx2....!!

urgh!!

wth is goin on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so bored...

2010-07-21T11:23:00.002+08:00

wednesdays r getting boring like tuesdays..

or issit everyday is bcoming like tuesdays...

so updates of my result,nothg proud of to be actually?

stb:A

eepe:C

fp:D

cdev:29/40

it:_____

ppcm: no assignment

wricom: have not even passup!

Fuck all my results ok...??

haish...

it sucks k?

2010-07-20T20:13:00.001+08:00

seriously...

i never treated u like one!

but since u want it so much...

i WILL...

u was always saying it... and hoping for it...

i will....

STUPID FUCK!!

COME HERE DOGGY!!!!

am i?

2010-07-20T13:07:00.000+08:00

AM I REALLY HAPPY NOW??

I PUT ON A SMILE,
BUT IM STILL CRYING INSIDE
I KEEP WANTING YOU
SINCE I LOVE YOU SO
BUT I'LL PUT A SMILE ON
BUT YOU'LL KNOW ITS A LIE
IM WILLING TO DO
ANYTHING FOR YOU

ooh!!

n today is syg o lvl mt lc...

all the best syg...!!

i'll b listening..... and tt we can change the answer..

UR COLOURS EXPOSED UNDER MY BRILLIANT RAINBOW!

2010-07-16T06:36:00.007+08:00

ON THIS DAY,15072010....

I FINALLY KNOW HOW MUCH I MEANT TO YOU..

SAD TO SAY,U LIED TO ME... (FB RELOGIN INCIDENT)

I WILL NEVER FORGET IT..

U SAY ALL THOSE SWIT THGS YTD... ON HOW U DIDNT LIE N SHIT...

N I WAS SO STUPID TO EVEN BELIEVE ITS FUCKING TRUE...

I GUESS ITS TOO MUCH...

U SAID U COME NP TO SUPPORT ME IN MY MATCH... N U TOLD ME TT U DIDNT NOE WHERE TO GO... BULLSHIT... RIGHT THERE AT THE ENTRANCE THERE IS LIKE A FREAKING MAP..

EXCUSES...

WHATS THE POINT OF US WHEN U ONI SEE U IN THIS RELATIONSHIP?

ITS HARDER NOW TO BLIVE IN U AND TRUZ UR WORDS...

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

~U SAID U R PRESSURIZE ... BLAH3...

~AND U SAID THAT NIGHT AFTER NIGHT U SPENT UR NIGHT TALKING TO ME,TT U NEGLECT UR STUDIES..PLS LA,IN THE FIRST PLACE, I DID SUGGEST TO CUT DOWN ON TT.. AND THEN U KATE I NK KOL LAKI ANE??

FUCK!

~U SUCK DAMN BAD AT CTRLLIN UR ANGER...

~UR SORYS R NVR TRUE,THEY R ONI SHORT TERM REMORSE...

~UR PROMISE R NVR MEANT TO LAST COS TO U... ITS JZ WERDS.. TTZ Y U CN BRK IT EVRI SGL DAY N REPROMISE AGAIN..

~U SAY U LOVE ME BUT DO U MEAN IT?

~U R MY EVRITHG... BUT DO U CHERISH ME...?

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

VB WAS A HEART BOILING ONE,WITH A NO SPORTSMANSHIP REFEREE AND UMPIRE(THE ONE WHO CHANGE THE SCORE),JOLYNN,I GUESS IS THE NAME...

HEY GUESS WAT BITCH?

I FINALLY CAN TALK ABOUT U ALL I WANT.. COS U NOE Y? THIS BLOG IS MINE..

THE GAME IS OVER... U STUPID BITCH OK? U WONT GET POINTS FOR HELPING THE OTHER TEAM WINS EXTRA MARKS.. U DUMB ASS..

STUPIDITY AND IDIO-CRACY(WHICH IS INVENTED FOR IDOITS LIKE U) IS IN U...

WAT MAKES U SO BIAS?

R U INTERESTED IN ANY OF THE GUYS THERE...?

PLS LA,LOOK INTO THE MIRROR! U R NT THAT PRETTY!

I SWEAR,IF WE WILL EVER CROSS PATHS IN LIFE AGAIN,I'LL MAKE U EAT MY SHIT!

I WILL BE FUCKING UNFAIR TO U.. SO U WILL FEEL WAT ALL MY TEAMMATES FEEL..

FUCK U OK...

FUCK U TIMES INFINITY...

U NOE Y THE LAST FEW SETS I SIT BESIDE U...?

COS I NOE U I WILL STILL CHEAT!

OUTSIDERS WHO ARE NOT PLAYING THE GAME... SAW EVRYTHG..

N EVEN WEN I STILL SIT BSIDE U,U STILL HESITATE TO TURN THE FLAPS WEN MY TEAM SCORE THE POINT...

FUCK U,JOLYN... OR JOLIN... OR JOLYNN... OR JOLENE...

OR HOWEVER UR NAME IS SPELT AS....

CAUSE TO ME U R JUST ONE FUCKING ASS HOLE...

MAYBE ALL UR LIFE,U HAVE BEEN CHEATED..

Y NOT VIRGIN ALREADY ISSIT??

COS U FUCK AROUND.. FUCKER...

NOT HAPY? COME C ME LOR... I NO SCARED ONE OK?

BLOGGER IS A GOOD PUBLIC USAGE TO CONDEMN PPL WITH NO CB LIKE U!

WATS THE BIG FUCK OF HAVING A WHSTLE N A "SCHOOL VOLLEYBALLER",BUT U URSELF GO THE WRONG WAY...??

STUPID!! BOTH OF U STUPID!!

VB WAS ALSO A BLAST,COS I MANAGED TO BE THE 'SHOCKING SERVER' AS I SERVE PRETTY WELL,ALL OVER THE NET.. BUT GUESS WAT MY TRICK WAS...

I WAS UNHAPPY WITH THE SOMEONE ABOVE AS IN,NOT JOLYNN,BUT SOMEWHERE IN THE FIRST PARAGRAPH... TT I TOOK THE BALL AS HIS HEAD... N TT I FELT SO GOOD SLAMMING IT...

FOR THOSE PPL,MY GFS N ZACH WHO WAS AFFECTED BY MY SUDDEN MOOD SWING..

IM SORRY... U PPL OWN THE COURT YTD!

again... the 14.... of the month....

2010-07-14T10:23:00.004+08:00

i edited this for u..^^

HAPPY THREE YEARS FIVE MONTHS!

LOVE IS NOT JUST A WORD.... ITS A COMMITMENT..

currently ppcm now.... later got i.t apps...
i tink must listen alr... class test coming!!! omg....

i love tuesdays! finally...

2010-07-13T22:17:00.003+08:00

today was officially the last training for vb... but still need stay back...

vb competition this thursday...

im so sad now,n scared oso cos i dun wan bring the team down...

till now,i cannot even serve properly... n how easy for the other class team to just score

by service points?

met syg aft sch today...

i guess i have to meet him like at least once a week...

went to cwp... to buy new pencilbox...

went to library... AGAIN...

blah3.... go home...

OK!!

i need to chiong more assignment..

-eepe grp...

-wricom indi...

-fp retype....

-it grp...

-stb storytellling

-cdev?

so stress up right now...

n ya syg... tmr will be a special day ok??

is this how much u love me.....

2010-07-11T10:48:00.000+08:00

haish....

wat will u do if i say i love someone else?

and yet u say u love her.... u hurt me yet again...

i hate to love when u love to hate....

haish... im not worth right?

im so sad right now...

just hope u r right here for me..

going thru all the sorrows with me..

i dun fucking understand!!

2010-07-10T21:23:00.001+08:00

u noe wat i hate? wat iritate me most??

ppl who dun keep their promise...

and that's u!!

to tink tt u will spare a tot for me..

bt u still wanna fly...

go!

go fly and nvr come back...

i dun care... u broke my hart...

i fucking hate u for making the bloody ae/at desicion...

u noe wat?

husbnds tt fly....

they leave bhind a wife,and kids tt lacks of attention...

man
when they are overseas
the sex desire
is there
...
n wen they cnnt ctrl
n im nt there
any woman is ok...
any slut will be fine..
even prostitute...
cos he can wear precautions...
im so sad

im not in the mood..

kthxbai!

im sick...

2010-07-09T15:16:00.007+08:00

ok.. im sick n tired.... so let the pic do the talking k??

body temp nt so good... very high...

n yet i still go sch,all cause of injection la....

bring medicine all to school...

so sad...

I LOOK DAMN SHAGGY&TIRED!!!

and i love my long fringe! miss it!

since i cut n rebon it...

and when total random-ness happen...

even the teacher joins in!!!

best day after a few weeks of havoc!!

2010-07-08T21:06:00.004+08:00

met my lil kids at childcare today...

weess....

so happy...

need to observe bath time...

blah3...

then went 888,met syg,who jz finish sch...

n went for injection...

for typhoid...

and to get some medicine....

then headed to cwp to watch eclipse..

boring!! cos no crying scene...

10 mins into show,and already kissing scne...

n its rated pg,should at least rate nc16..

n ya! victoria's dead...!!

woohoo!!

and then,went to libri... study abit...

then went home!

AND OH!! TT TIME,WENT I GO BUY MUDPIE DURING BRK TIME,I RECEIVE A FREE LIMITED EDITION BLUEBERRY ICECREAM OREO...

I LOVE IT...

ITS FUCKING DELICIOUS!

things are so sad...

2010-07-07T14:33:00.002+08:00

syg has been very cruel to me lately..

im startin to feel so disappreciated lately...

ayg i love you...

pls dun make me sad...

and ya..misunderstanding with dear fidah...

lazy to elab....

ths is the 'best' time ever...

2010-07-02T09:57:00.000+08:00

things r really not goin well..
not goin according to wat i plan or xpekted..

haish..
got bad my results alr....
wait till syg sees it... and then,im dead meat!

i mean for some of my assignment la...
n guess wat??

I GET A for my speech training...
i was so happy...
and then i flung my field pract with a FUCKING D??

i tot year 1 are the most easiest to score..
but im so dissapointed..
haish...

luckily in poly D is not fail,bt its alr bad enough..

the criteria is:
A+&A:excllent
B+&B:very good
C+&C:good
D:pass
E:fail

wats w the +? and im so goinna chiong my next assignments...
i dun wanna make HISTORY,and like wat?
fail my 1st yr... n summore sch fees is nt cheap either....
parens will sure scold if i didnt do well...

not on gd terms w syg..
but still contktin though....
bt ya.... sad life...
i sayd sumthg hurtful to him....

let me say to u: dun ever say LESS THAN 1,ALAWAYS say LESS THAN 3....
i love u syg,no matter wat happen...

flooding disaster..

2010-07-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY SUCKS!!!

tts how my whole week has been...

attchment was awesome..
but check out the disaster after tt!!!

spore has poor drainage system,precisely...

some place the water was like ankle high!!

GEL AND ME WAS DRENCED... ARIEL WAS HALF DRENCHED...

yet,i still report for work...

ah choo!!!

i tink i m getting cold soon....

see how i ROCK my FOLDED skinny jeans!

things r goin wrong...

2010-06-29T21:27:00.004+08:00

first up..

monday was disastrous...

i went to school... all in blue..
to show that im havin my monday blues... like usual...
as sch hols are like freaking over...
complete with matching beanie(to cover my bad hair day;massive amnt of gel is harmed in the making ) and matching gloves(make me look like ash from pokemon)..
i rock my FAV COLOUR out!!

met syg sft tt,cos he need to see wat virus is attacking my lappy..
and he reformat sumthg...

and today,
was super damn fuck!!!
i went out of house like normal time,ok,a bit later than usual..
when i reach the int..i look at the free NP shuttle bus q,n it was alr damn fucking long..
so i decided to take the public bus since i alr bought concession due to the distance fare charges...

BAD IDEA!!
i was late for class...
it was JAM,from rail mall...ONWARDS...

why?
cos there r two freaking accidents tt occur...
STUPID DRIVERS!!

so yup,i was marked as absent,i guess..
cos i reached class at like wat 9.35??

FUCK!!!

best part, when my bus 184 was in the jam,there was this ambulance right next to it...
it blast the siren so loud.... tt i was ready to explode...!!
summore i was like stress looking at my watch...
n yet motorists cant even be bother.... i mean,4 gdness sake,ambulance wont open the siren unless it is an emergency,like sum1 is dying in there!!!

so fed up;

i mumbled to myself,loudly actually..

ME:STUPID SPOREANS,what if its their loved ones inside there?

then a malay girl next to me answered..

GIRL: hey chill,i noe u r stress cos we r late in this jam.. but dun worry all of us in this bus seems to be in the same boat...

ME:-.-"

GIRL: (:

i mean stop smirking!

a girl can even slp w her mouth open....
so unglam lor!
confirm slacker!!
n worst,she salivate... EWW!!
and summor act blur!!!

n vb,was equally stupid!!
i hate u miss june!!
i hate getting bruises on my arm cos of vb...
i hate doing sefving,doing spiking...
it hurts...

i oso find out that i have a superpower...(dun wan tell u)

calling syg l8r..

ok,tts it for today...

XOXO

and i went to KOREA...

2010-06-20T14:17:00.001+08:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!

technically not KOREA but more specifically SEOUL GARDEN..
and i smell like shit aft tt..

but still i went to work...
and i sprayed massive amnt of perfume on my body...
and massive amnt of hairspray on my hair...

so pictures!

ecp disaster or...??

2010-06-16T00:51:00.009+08:00

reach ecp w syg...camwhore while pitching the tent....

gf came over for bbq and stuffss..

and we sang and eat...

spent the nite bbqing w syg and dearest gfs...

to celebrate my 3yrs4 mth... and our new sister hood!

we didnt finish the bbq though...

and i learn a new song.... from syg,..

and i learn to play some strings...

went to e arcade since the pool rates was extra expensive at night...

wanted to play bowling..

but my lil pinky is still recovering...

I LOVE THIS PICTURE!^^

currently at gf leying house.. early in the am,

doing project and waiting for syg to call me...(hopefully)

was suppose to spent 3d2n(1406-1606) w syg at ecp..

but due to some reason..and it was raining ytd in the am..

our tent was flooded... and all items are wet..

furthermor his dad wan him back...

OH! N DID I TELL U??

I GOT MY SAMSUNG JET ALR!!

been busy lately...

2010-06-11T20:43:00.002+08:00

im busy preparing the bbq stuffs with syg...
had been going to shengshiong to get the items...
and online bbq wholesale... was so confusing!
i spent alot sia...
like almost all my savings in the bank is like going to be used up...

haish....
any of u...
want go the bbq??

its at east coast park this coming 14 june...
however,u need to pay $5,
which is alr quite cheap ok??

let me noe by sunday night,,,
call me or my bf...

im tired!

infected?

2010-06-07T22:09:00.001+08:00

#200

yep,this is it.. my 200th post..

just came back with syg from somerset...
i wanted to buy VICTORIA SECRETperfume badly..
so get it for ike$18...
wen actually there are other shops which are selling at $16..
BUT to get the smell i want,im willing to pay more..

had dinner at ria indonesia stall...
where i had beef penyet,while syg had chicken penyet...
went home around 9...

and then while walking home,found a baby bird....
since syg was sending me home,he asked me to bring it home
as his family dun really like to keep pets...
and knowin tt last time i had my dearest late boboy-cockatiel-,
its time i get a new bird...

currently,MJ-my cat- is not intersted in the fishes anymore(y do i have so many animals?)
he's now looking at JACK2.. tts wat i decided to name the bird..
the bird is like so freaking small ok?
like thhe size of my thumb!
hmm...
and ya... hopefully,MJ never eat JACK2....

N ya,my poor EYE is INFECTED again...
stupid online contact lens...
i dun have any complicatons when im bought from shop contact lens..
my eyes are damn red...
will i go blind this way??

is it like gone?

2010-06-05T10:11:00.001+08:00

I LOVE U 4EVER N SO MUCH...

TTS ALL I GOT TO SAY,UP TO U WHETHER TO BLIVE ME OR NOT...

IM TIRED,IM SPEECHLESS,I RAN OUT OF WORDS..

I GIVE UP... U WIN K??

whatever u r doing now,its brilliantly working....
arent u happy? );

i am so weak!!

2010-06-04T21:48:00.004+08:00

OUCH!!

i freaking FRACTURED + DISLOCATE MY RIGHT PINKY!!

no need ask me y...

cos i dun even wanna tell u y...

hehe...

writing has never ever been hard before till recenty...

luckily all exams are lappy based exam...

if not i think i need xtra time..

n ya... i tink i mite have the luxury to skip vb...

cos nxt wk,no vb...

n then hols,two week,by the time,ive recovered alr...

wees...

btw,im fiting w NAZME again...

im not in the mood to share!

he oso dun care one to spent tym w me...

since i rebon my fringe..

tell me!

is rebonding fringe like a sin??

he oso like dun care abt my finger lor..

its like oni at tt moment that he massaged it and "put it back" at its original place..

new style or..........

2010-06-02T22:11:00.002+08:00

apparently,i cut and rebon my bangs again...

and well,sumone is unhappy...........

but i cant help it! fringe is long!! n CURLY!

2010-06-01T19:10:00.003+08:00

currently w syg now at the library..

just aft sch...

so tired...

recently,he's been so good to me..

well.he gave in to me alot....

n he spent his time be4 n aft his o lvl w me..

i wan say:

thk u ayg...

for making the effort to have time for me..

i noe u r bz w sch and stufss..

i noe sometyms,well,alot of times,i scold2 u...

but deep down i really love u...

im sory k for being like a BITCH...

p.s: i love it when u hug me...

y cant ppl understan??

2010-05-28T09:54:00.002+08:00

tgif!! finally... thx to vesak day..!
get today to rest...

but then,parents want go out of country,,,
jus because dad rent a car...!
argh...
cant they understan tt i got projects to hand in like next week??
can they see tt im sick..??

i have a flu,fever,sore throat...
n dizzy headache this few days...

but noone care...
well,syg do care...

n ytd,at work... my manager care...
so yea...

school is tiring me out...

i h8 life...

2010-05-26T22:05:00.002+08:00

blah3...

life sux!

one aft another...

2010-05-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

haish...

why is this always happening??

1st iskandar

now,adam!

eh..pls..

if u r all tryin to break my bf n me apart,it doesnt work k?

i love him..

n i truz him..

i noe he wont btray my love for him...

we r stronger than wat u tot k??

SUCK UR OWN DICK LA!

all of u ppl,each sgl ppl,r really getting on my nerves...

dun make me lose my cool k??

cos u noe wen u hit the max pt...

im goinna turn really bad..

that's wen u will fucking cry for ur mothers!!

oh ya,even before u can shout "MUM!",i'll make sure i'll give u one,,

tt can sent u fying across singapore..

FUCK U PPL...

i hate fiting w him..

siallah!
school sux k??

projects r dued like next week!!!

n ya,hu bloody noes how to use access..??

ECH teahers need to noe access meh?

IS not as if we r like business students sia...

excel is alr good enuf..

lucky syg help me...

N YA,HAPPY BDAE IBU!!!

thgs r going fast...

2010-05-25T10:08:00.000+08:00

pfft...

everithg is going at really fast pace...

im tired sey!!!

projects are piling up..

n ya,,, sch is tiring me out...

i look as if im off colour...

SHIT!
i tink im falling sick!

so yeah..

just came back home..

met syg just now.. aft sch...

we went to the library..

as he wanted to study for his malay o lvl,wich is nx monday..

wile i wanna research on some projects..

then,went cwp to eat...

at mcs..

and my hp bill is like $182.00...

sad sia...

where am i gonna get the money to pay up??

haish...

I MISS MAYA!!

haish....

2010-05-19T16:57:00.000+08:00

well...
ytd met syg aft sch...

went to the libri..
n then went to cwp pizza hut to have dinner...

n ya..
aft tt headed home...

n FITE again...
y do we always fite??
wen we promised not to??

haish...
n ya...
its cause apparently syg is not happy tt i called him kental or pnakot...
wich means scaredy cat in maly...

cos he wanted to ask this indon guy (waiter at pizza hut) wat was his race..
cos his name was ariel.. just like the vicalist in syf used to be fav band.. PETERPAN...
then i kept askin him to ask..
n he tot i was interested in him...
n i added fuel to the fire by saying tt he was scared...

n ya...
he then give me a situation..
if it was a girl...
n if he kept pressing me to noe the girls name..
wat will i feel...

then i realise its my fault...

im sorry k??

special yet it hurts..

2010-05-14T16:30:00.000+08:00

3 YEAr 3 MONTH!

but still i was accused of lying and was beaten yet again..

yes! we had it...!

2010-05-14T14:04:00.000+08:00

ayg came over today...

n he help me w the mc office stuffs..
n spent tym w me..

AND WE CAMWHORE!

ayg act cute and emo!!

i have the werl nicest bf...

2010-05-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

syg sent me to sch today again despite him hiaving exam today...
n he waited for me me till i finish...
so sweet right??
i app it alot.. even if i dun sho...

n den had some misunderstanding w him... wich till now i tink its still goin on...
syg is comin over tmr.. hopefully...
ya,he needs to do some I.T stuffs for me and also to sent some items over and spent tym w me of corurse!

bt ya, i have a feeling he will dun wan to come cos of wat happen today...
but nvm hidayah!
tink positive ok??

n ya i love my syg than anyone in ths werl...
seriously...
wees... im looking forward to another 3 more days...
yeah!!

N POOR ETHEL!

she dislocate her thumb during s&w...

omg!!

rest well dear ethel...

the six of us wll be here for u...

GET WELL SOON OK?

so tired...

2010-05-10T20:14:00.000+08:00

met angeline and syg in the aftnn at the libri..

then syg accompany me to sch... for my scholar interview..
oh so swit!
but then,he got stares cos he's in sch uniform...
thus,he was unhappy....

spent time w syg at clementi city vibe..
and then headed to cwp and sumwhere...
and then headed home...

tmr got s&w module.. miss my gfs!!!

ELEARNING WHOLE WEEK! SO SIAN!!!

im better now,i guess...

2010-05-10T13:09:00.000+08:00

I tink i like my phychiatrist... He helped me alot..

Thanks DR PATRICK JEAN!

LOVE HIM! even though his diff but he is the same.

and hell yeah, HAPPY MOTHER DAY IBU!

bought here somethg at less than $20...

haish...

2010-05-06T17:08:00.000+08:00

im so stress..

syg i need u here...

wats is going on??

2010-05-06T11:40:00.000+08:00

im so stupid...

i used to ask syg wats wrong w him...

but in fact i should ask tt qn to myself...

WATS FREAKING WRONG WITH ME??

why am i turning from bad to worst?

recently,i hurt alot of ppl w my self ctrd action..

syg... parents... colleagues... frens...

wth...

i just dk how to mantain a good relationship...

n ya,i realy pity syg..

he seems to be struggling to hold on to this relationshp...

should i lyk let it go?

but i really love him..

but to know tt he is so much pain to be w me,its also unbearable..

he's so hurt tt..

last nite he said to me..

"i rather dont live/die than to live in this world where ppl tell me lies"

well..

i felt the pinch there...

but he said ppl... so there's more..

its really tormenting for him....

im so sad...

n ya,,, to stalker iskandar, i swear in the name of god..

i'll hunt u dwn...

until my last breath,i will HATE u..

u r e cause of everythg tt went wrong in my lyf!

wen i get u,than u know.......................

FACE MY WRATH!
i'll make sure i"ll bash u up..

!!!
u hit my boiling pt..

n i cnnt hold bk any longer...

FUCK U ISKANDAR!!!

poly is tiring...

2010-05-04T12:59:00.000+08:00

now stuck at the attic until 4...

lecture ended at 11 just now..

went to mkn place to eat...

and now blogging here...

so boring..

poly is so f-ing tiring k?

nothg to do...

now everyone is like playing their own lappy...

so its like uber boring!

hmm.. and i got nothg to do...

i miss syg...

ALOT...

aiyo...

he nt schling sey today...

pub hol!
y poly no f-ing holiday?!

hmm..

i want slp...

**yawn**

im so thankful!

2010-05-02T09:53:00.000+08:00

had a fight w syg..

n ya,,,
he asked me to delete this blog!!
actually at first it was really hard...

cos i spent all my time n effort on this blog...
n ya... i wanted to show our future sons/daughters(ehem) wat life i went thru...
its really sad!

so yeap..
a few mins ago i deleted it..
n ya... syg asked me to restore again...

i didnt noe once dleted can restore...
but i noe in a period of 90days...

im so happy syg...
thx!!

btw,ytd had dinner w syg at breeks..
not bad uh...
i like the cookies n creme milkshake n the choc fondue..
the pasta tt i had was ok2 uh...
bbut overall for 55 bucks,quite worth...
better than goin to sewnsen!

i love them ALL!

2010-04-30T16:51:00.000+08:00

LEFT TO RIGHT,FROM ON TOP:

RAFIDAH-SERENA-LEYING

ME-ETHEL-ANGELINE-AMANDA

thx for everythg girls!
i love u all!

meeting syg l8r...

thgs i found out recently!

2010-04-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

1) i get motion sickness easily otw to sch in the bus!
2) i cnnt stand ppl who slang their ENGLISH,esp customers!

3) app n love ppl around me (will elaborate more in ths post)

4) i want to buy alot of victoria cret perfume!

5)MIGHT ADD ON MORE SOON..

syg,recently told me tt he contracted cancer!
4th stage out of 5!

so i was crying like mad everyday!

i like cannot focus in sch!!

until i noe tt he was faking the whole thg...

but i wasnt angry!

and ya,he said he pronounce it as CANK-CER!

wahlao!
HE REALLY SUSPENSE THE SHIT OUT OF ME!

but it really made me love him more..

n tell him how much i love him..

SYG I LOVE YOU!

PE was awesome! n CRAP!

2010-04-28T10:40:00.000+08:00

MINUTES BEFORE PE LESSON!

CRAPPIEST CLOTHING AND PICTURE W DEAR COUSIN! WE WERE FOLLOWING THE SIGNAGE POINTING OUR BUTTS OUT!

CHANGING IS THE BEST PART!

i love them!

2010-04-27T10:53:00.000+08:00

they are the reasons tt i looked forward to sch evriday...

their craps n LAMEASS jokes!

n ya,they r great makan kakis...

LOVE U GIRLS!

is this it?

2010-04-26T18:37:00.000+08:00

haish...

ive always accepted u 4 who u r...
n nw its hurts me tt u compare me to other girls...

n ya tt time, ble i kate "u pkir u hansem sgt"
u were hurt...
then how do u tink i feel ths time..
at tt time,i pushd ur ego..
this time u pushd my self-esteem...

i nvr kene vulgared at so badly by u b4..
u really made me so SMALL.

im so sad..

i noe i lied again but i didnt flirt..
i just wanted to know who passed my num to him..
tt was all my motiv!
i didnt mean 2 hide anythg from you but i was SCARED!
scared of evrithg,,
furthermore its the 1st week of poly...
n i dun wan u to be tinkin tt im like flirtin arnd...

i dun wan ppl to tink tt im pampered by u...
i will lose face.. my reputation...
ppl will say "i skit2 cari bf"
i dun wanna be labelled as scaredy cat...

pls i really hope u understand me....

IM SORY!

pictures mean a thousands words!

2010-04-26T10:58:00.000+08:00

bored n sleepy...

2010-04-23T17:27:00.000+08:00

now in class still

IT applications..

so sian...

ytd had a fun nite talkin w syg!
i miss him alot...

its been a long time i talk to him at night..

maybe im meetng him aft sch today...

idk..

i want bubble tea...

my hp bill is like 60 bucks...

F!!

hmm....

n i nid to buy books n shoes n stuffs...

ok shit..

i think teacher suspect alr..

haha...

bye!

attic moments!

2010-04-22T10:57:00.000+08:00

2nd day!

2010-04-20T17:13:00.000+08:00

currently just finished lesson..

now its lunch...

eating w fidah n izzah...

im having like chicken rice sort of dish..

for $3.20 for a large potion it is so damn CHEAP!

lessons are fun today...

finally know my subs classes...

goinna b together for like wat?

3yrs??

hmm..

im still tinkin of wat cca i wanna join..

syg dun seem to care or ....... support at all..

he says he trust me..

oh well...

i miss him alot sia...

goinna buy NP shirt...

yea,its like a must..!

hmm..

next up is like wat lesson?

sports n wellness..

im planning to take like wat?

swimming?

badminton?

let's see k?

ok gtg...

bye!

1st day...at ngee ann...

2010-04-19T11:51:00.000+08:00

yeap currently at poly now...
with dearest fidah,my cousin,at the atrium...

im supposed to head back to woodlands to go to work...
but im too lazy!

lecture was so boring!
almost doze off...

My lecture mate is fatin..
well,actually she just sat beside me...
ttz y...
she is damn frenly...
her 6yr bf is oso in the same poly...
ala... i hope syg will like graduate faster to be w me...

syg,,,,im alr missing u here...
wat u doing?

alright...
ttz all for now..

gtg!
bye!

p.s:i freaking bought a fucking thick book for $39.00
bye money!

fuck! and i already have homework siia.....
who reads page 6 to page 21??
wtf!!

there will be a test on the homework..

ok seriously this time...
BYE!

tired n so sore... n heart pain...

2010-04-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

just came back from camp at ngee ann,HMS ROCKS..
ive losed my voice.. wen i dun tink i like shout and scream...
n im starting to MISS vesper..

vesper we will organise a gathering ok?
or maybe catch luch tigether @ makan place some time...

n ya,slept at the loft! which is like a freaking cool cos its like a flat!
complete with living room,kitchen,toilet and BEDS! and master bedroom..
in each apartment,there r like 9 ppl...
ITS SO COMFORTABLE AND MODERN!

and the food was beyond expected!
its like so nice...

campnight was sactually supposed to be a campfire..
but it was raining so changed of plan..
yea,have fun,but i didnt particapate in the performance as somethg happen btwn me and one grp mate...
(lazy to elaborate)

all in all,$15 is so worth for the whole camp...

im so happy!

n ya its my 3yrs 2mth w syg today!

so many thgs...

2010-04-09T11:15:00.000+08:00

haish...

so is ths it?
the day where i stepped into a whole new world...
hope it isnt tt bad sia...

a few more days and im goin to camp..
and yea,im in orange team(pyxis)
!! y cant i always be in blue .. team?
in my life,no matter how much i love blue...
i never been in blue team,its so ironic...!

yea... n i missing syg alr..
u noe where he wnt?
LISTEN UP GEOG STUDENT OF CLASS 2009

:THE F-ING SCH APPARENTLY SPONSOR THE SEC5S GEOG STUDENT TO KOTA TINGGI!
TO LEARN OUTDOOR GEOG!
I THINK ABT LONGSHORE DRIFT.. AND STUFFS...

F-INF UNFAIR..
HOW COME WE DONT HAVE THIS F-ING OPPURTUNITY...
SUCKS LIKE HELL.. FAVOURITISM!

hmm... he's coming bk tmr though....
wondering wat is he doing now...

n ya... im sick and tired of work..
its really tiring sia.. dk if i still wanna continue?
cos there r like so many benefits working dere..
n my 'family' is dere too...
so confused....

n a special shout out to my GF,MAYA!

eh,where r u?? i miss u sey!

so much thgs...

2010-04-04T15:39:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging!

to 4apex!

n ya,so much for a class gathering!
i wasnt even informed at all..

no one even tell me...

not tt i cn go(cos im forever working),but at least one of u could have tell me...

i noe for SOME reasons some of u dun treat me as one..

by yea... at least i used to be part of u guys..

watever k??

n i miss syg...

syg came to have dinner w me the other day..

aww...

so swit of u dear...

i appreciate wat u did...

n ya,set up some RULES for e both of us!
syg wants me to close all my piercing... but dere can ONLY be 2 left..

pfft...

so unreasonable leh!

but nvm,i really dun mind..

n ya poly starting soon!
n camp is coming....im looking forward to my camp..

but at least hey,on brighter side,poly will be much more fun than sec sch right??

guess wat?

my cousin is in the same poly,same school and same course !!!!

how freaking3 awesome is tt?

a confession from deep deep down...

2010-03-28T12:54:00.000+08:00

i just missed how we used to be..

last time..

the pure and innocent love we used to have..

even then,if i did took u for granted.im sory..

but now,i dont..

i really treasure u...

hmm...

guess i cant have all tt back,caaaaan i??

everythg changed now..

but at least i noe my feelings for u wont..

as each days pasd,i feel harder to breathe...

idk wats ur motive of doing tis to me..

u r diff...

deep down i noe im f-ing hurt by everythg u do!

most ppl say i love you mor than you love me,issit true?

hmm...i'll remember your last words..

2010-03-27T10:05:00.000+08:00

...there is nothg common btween us anymore...

since tts wat u say,i'll lock it up in my brain..

since u dun app me...

u dun treasure me..

u dun give a damn abt me or whatever tt is goin on in this relationship..

i ask you a simple qn...

wat is love to you...

and you cant answer..

im tired k?

just like you... of ur craps...

like i say,u r not just childish and immature...

u r more than that...

at the very least i dare to say tt im better,i guess...

n ya,wats the point apologising wen u keep repeating the same mistakes?

alice is my new gf!

2010-03-18T12:40:00.000+08:00

went out w syg today...

went to heeren,billabong n ripcurl to look for somethg....

catch alice in the wonderland 3d..
wees...
it was so fun...
n syg was like reaching out for the animation and stuffs..
so funny...

then headed to lucky plaza to eat the best and syiok AYAM PENYET ever!
i mean,its like the original...
i sort of named tt place "maid place" and claim tt i oni shop at PARAGON..
n then wenever i wanna buy thgs like the perfume there or somethg...
syg will go" i tot u r riiiiich?"
then i will say... "yala! maid place"

walk2 at 313...

n ya... went to orchard ctrl..
go to the fish spa..
u noe the tiny lil fshes tt eat ur dirt ot issit dead skin cells...
at first,i was lafin like mad cow...
aft i regain my composure it was ok..
syg felt ticklish at first,wat do u expect?
its his first time,it was my 2nd...

hmm... i dun wan go orchard anymor...
im sick of tt place..
even worst for syg! cos he used to work in tt area...

siamese sweets?

2010-03-16T17:19:00.000+08:00

how cool is ths??

who would have thought?

2010-03-15T17:16:00.000+08:00

... hey even aft evrythg,we made it thru...

syg!
i love u!!

HAPPY 3yrs 1 mth!

wees...

sorry ths month nothg...

i tkde budgetla... maklom la,i kn sign package kt newyork..

tros lobng kocek i!

i love u darling many2 tau!

hee... cant wait for the 17...!

n ya,dad freaking bought me my dream laptop...

f-ing gr8...

syg,u r goinna b so jealous...

come my hse n do the dwnloads for me k?

im feeling the jitters!

2010-03-13T17:54:00.000+08:00

well off day..

went to suntec city w mum..
to body shop warehse sale...
where the items r most better than staff discnt..
bought alot of perfume and showergels and travels kits..

oso,
n IT SHOW..
now im stuck btwn...
ASUS A42JR series... and FUJITSU Lifebook LH530...

aft tt went to NP to submit all forms..

yea,so at least admin matters r cleared!

the journey to n fro NP is abt 2hrs++
im goinna so be sian go to sch...

n i want both cars!!!